This blogging absence has been WAY longer than anticipated, but I suppose that’s what happens when your MOVING!!
Wha wha what??
|not my house. i wish. but it's my parents!|
Jake and I have moved to Michigan, and not only back to Michigan, but in with my parents.
By now, some of you my be thinking “gee, this girl seems real attached to her family, wasn’t her mom just living with her”?
Yes. yes she was.
And now we live with them.
Because I need them...
I need my family. This awesome, amazing family.
I’ve decided to sincerely live into this recovery and I need help. I’ve always thought that recovery was something I could do on my own. Couldn’t I just plug in the necessary steps and make myself do it?
I’d like to think that I could, I’m a very independent person. But recovery is different.
Just in the amount of time my mom was in my house, I made more progress in that one month than the last year was able to offer me.
When I surrounded myself with support, it allowed me to open up to so many other aspects of recovery.
I may sound like a broken record, but really entering into emotionally experiencing this process has allowed so much forward motion into my life.
Having my mom around meant that I could let myself be sad.
I no longer had to do all of those things for myself all at once. keeping it all together, while trying to plow through the tornado going on in my head. Having my family around has been awesome.
So much so that when the opportunity came up, Jake and I agreed that it was my best chance at success to move back home and be with family.
And maybe I don’t always need them. every single day. and maybe I need them more than I think. But knowing they’re there, gives me strength. And when I don’t have any they’ve been there to give it back.
There is something super empowering about being back home
Which is something I never thought I’d say.
I don’t like to feel needy.
But sometimes you need to be to get to where you need to go?
I don’t know. haha
If you’ve stuck through my novel of thoughts through this post. you’re awesome!