a year ago, a year from now.

Monday, February 8, 2016
I never used to put much weight into setting goals. Because honestly, I don’t think adult me knew how to set “non college oriented goals”.

As I got ready to sit down with my family for the big game, I thought about where I was last year.

It’s crazy to think that a year ago this Super Bowl I was sitting in my parents living room. 
Snowed in from driving home, I sat with family and watched the game, enjoyed commercials, and was forced to really sit down and think about where I was going next.

Obviously I wasn’t driving down I-94 anytime soon.

But what more in terms of what was going to be my next step.
It had roughly been about 7 months since my stay at Linden Oaks hospital, and I had myself all over the map.

Dropped my meal plan, took up tons of cardio, began secluding myself and had worked my way out of being a role model for my middle school girls.

Snow piling up and nowhere to go, my family took that time to really discuss with me the seriousness of the path I was on. Part of me knew it, but there was a bigger darker part that really didn’t want me to understand what was happening. 
Trying to keep both parties at bay, I decided to try at home recovery, on my own, finding my own support and my own help, and if I couldn’t do it, I would return to the hospital.
And that is where we left it after that Super Bowl weekend.

I had no idea where I wanted to be that next week, let alone a year from then. All I knew was that I did NOT want to end up back in the hospital. 


I think not having any real sense of direction led me from serious, to an intensely serious situation. 

Sparing you a repeat of details from my ED story, we fast-forward.

A year from now…


I had a blast light night watching Super Bowl 50 with my family.
I have certainly come strides from where I was last football game. 
So much looked and felt different from last year.
And it got me thinking...
Where do I want to be a year from now? 

I look up to all these people on Instagram, or people from training websites and their transformation pictures are PHENOMENAL.
Like so inspiring.
I would love that for myself.

And for too long I sat there stuck. 

Doing the same things day in and day out expecting something to change.
People. That is the definition of crazy.
Change won’t just happen.

The shift that started my lifestyle change all began a year ago, sitting in my parent’s living room, really thinking about what I wanted for myself. Maybe I didn't know it well then, but I know it now.

My goals since then have changed and grown with me. 
Now I’m able to set my sights on new things, and some things I didn’t know then that I would want for myself now.
Some times I’m bummed.
I wish the girl that’s here now would have showed up a year ago. Maybe I would have back some of the things I lost.

But then I don't think I would have really appreciated this journey, and where it has brought me today. 

Left: last year Right: this year

I'm thankful for that. 
I don't think I would be where I am today without sitting down and thinking about where I wanted to go. 

So now I’m ready for more!

I want to look back a year from now and see a difference
And that difference starts when I set that goal.
That will change what I do 5 months from now.
2 weeks from now.
Even what I am doing tomorrow.

I’m looking forward to next year’s Super Bowl. That’s all I have to say

Get ready for Paczki's!!!

Share with me!
-What goals do you have for yourself today, next month, next week or even tomorrow??
-Who's partaking in Fat Tuesday?
-Do you have a favorite filling for your Paczki? 

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